Is it just me, or is adoption scary? I mean, here we are planning to add one or two little ones to our family that come from another culture & continent. After all our hard work, prayers & tears, I am now feeling overwhelmed by what we are planning. Talk about an emotional roller coaster!
I have so many questions. Like...how do we discipline & yet bond at the same time, how do we balance the way we treat our bio. son with the way we will treat our new kid(s), because I know they'll have to be different in some ways, at least for awhile...how do we handle the fact that our son already has toys & the new little pumpkin will either have lots too (that will have to be new) & will make our bio. son jealous, or not have as many & that won't be good either...how will the attachment process go...how will I be strong enough physically to keep up, to handle the sleep deprivation ...and on and on...!
At the end of my current "Questioning/Panic Attack" I realize that I felt a bit like this the first time around - when I was pregnant with Mark. I just take my responsibilities seriously & get a little too conscientious/stressed sometimes. I also realize that yes, I am in way over my head and that it's OK. It's probably right where God wants me to be. I am very aware of my utter reliance on Him!
Anyone else gone through these feelings?